Ill, from the sick perspective

I know I’m falling ill a little too often. And yes, I’m ill again (I shall refrain from using the word sick. According to chrissy, sick is a mental condition). I had a shock on Tuesday when my temperature rose to 38degrees. I don’t get fever often you see. So when it went down on Wednesday, I dint really give it much thought anymore. But the problem is, I dint know my thermometer was spoilt. I think I dropped it too often. So when I thought my temp went down, it didn’t at all. It was still 38 degrees. After much nagging from my mum and R, I finally decided to pay the doctor a visit.

To think that I went to a clinic, not the polyclinic mind you, and I still have to wait for 2 hours. So I was sitting there, sniffing real hard and feeling like shit for 2 hours before it was finally my turn. I was ushered out after less than 5 minutes in the doctor’s room. Then, I continue to wait to get my medicine. Ah, life is a waiting game.

I don’t like to visit doctors. Not because I’m afraid of them or because I’m afraid of taking medicines. I don’t like to visit them because I’ll be stuck in an area full of ill people that look so gloomy and sad that I’ll be feeling even more gloomy and sad. I know I cant expect people to look real happy and cheerful when they are not feeling well but yeah, you get my point. And not only am I stuck in an area full of gloomy and sad people, I’m stuck in an area full of germs. I know I contribute to the germs floating there too but I just don’t like it! And then I have to wait. And wait. And wait and wait and wait. I feel like a selfish asshole but heck. But the worst part is not all of those mentioned above. The main reason why I don’t like to visit doctors, or in this case, don’t want to visit doctors is because my mum dint give me money to see one despite nagging at me to go visit the doctor. So today, 32 buckeroos flew away from my wallet. I can eat Katong Chicken Rice EIGHT times with that money! EIGHT TIMES! Get it?

Right now, I’m mentally awake and physically tired. I just cant bring myself to sleep again after sleeping the whole day. Ok I did do something constructive, like pulling myself out of bed to tuition, looking all grey and gloomy. I had tuition in my “oh, so sexy” voice and I felt like killing my cousin half the time. Restless kid plus ill tutor equals horrible tuition. I actually wanted to cancel tuition since my doctor ordered me to have ample rest but sigh, his exam is taking place next week so I practically have no choice at all. Such a good soul I am. LOL.

And because I was ill, I pangseh-ed sher on weds and tansy today. Felt so bad lar! Sher even called me today and asked me to go out but I aint able to make it. ARGH!

Contract ended last Friday so I spent most of my days at home=) Pure bliss. Stayed in bed most of the time due to lack of energy but I did some reading. Happy cans! It used to be only work and tuition. Now I have time for more things such as reading! Lets see, R bought me two books and I still have 3 books that I have not read so…that means I have lots of reading to do! I can foresee constructive time spent at home!

Received both NTU and NUS letters already. Both schools start in August. That means, I gotta find a job again. Anybody have any lobang to offer, contact me ok!

I have no idea when that time is no longer measured by minutes, hours, days, weeks or months.
Its measured by when I’m going to be able to see R again.

A typical day

Had tuition with Sweedy’s bro today. It feels weird going over to her place not to find her but for a different purpose instead. Lucky was looking for food when I reached, and was still looking for food when I left. You see, he thought I have food on my hand but I do not, so I ended up having his saliva all over my palm. Which I kindly wiped it on his fur. Uh huh.

I came online to search for something and am supposed to go offline to do my stuff. I ended up staying longer than I’m supposed to. This means, I have to leave stuffs that I have to do to tomorrow again. I’m such a procrastinator. Its so bad that I cant stand it myself. Oh wells, tuition tmr is postponed to thurs as tmr’s granny’s death anni so I have to be at Big Uncle’s house for dinner. This means I can be home a little tad earlier to do those stuffs. Hopefully I’m disciplined enough to actually sit in front of the table and get started.

Weather’s horrible.
I’m trying hard not to fall sick. I think I better turn in soon.

4 more days till 27th!

In The Mind

Its all in the mind.

Ever since I stopped playing netball competitively, I feel myself growing weak. Not only physically, but mentally as well. Or was it the environment? I’ve got no idea. Somehow I feel that challenges posed to me are no longer as challenging. Or too challenging that I cant be bothered to give a damn. I give up easily and I lose my strength. I lost my discipline and perseverance. I’m on the path to trying to find it all back again but it’s a daunting task. Why is it so difficult to gain but so easy to lose? I’ve to keep reminding myself that everything is in the mind. I believe that if I keep tell myself that I can do something, I’ll be able to do it. Like, turning up for work everyday despite knowing it sucks to the core ( I’m really proud of myself, I haven take leave for two weeks!) Speaking of work, one more week and I’m a free being. Angela’s jealous. I can’t believe I’ve work at that company for almost three months already. Time passed so quickly that I’ve lost track of it.

I’ve been feeling really lazy lately. I’ve not been preparing for tuition, helping with the housework and stuff. Upon reaching home, I’ll eat, bath, talk on the phone, tv, sleep. Tadah! Its amazing that I aint bored leaving such a routine lifestyle. Probably because I’m hard on cash these days. Arh money money. Its just like food. I have a love hate relationship with the both of them. Ok I digressed. I was on the topic of laziness. Yes. It all sums up to one thing. GY is lacking in discipline and sheer mind power. Sigh.

I just mention to tansy I want to buy a street directory, bus guide whtever. Pocket version. So I can carry it with me all over the place and hunt down on good and cheap food. Such a good idea don’t you think? By the way, while I’m working on how to be more diligent, can someone please remind me to exercise? Just send me a msg now and then that says, “I bet you can’t wake up this Sunday morning to go running. HAHA.” And I’ll be up and about on Sunday morning showing to you that I CAN.

PS: I need sarcasm in order to function sometimes.

When you wake up to food.

Today I woke up to my brother’s screams. Ok he wasn’t screaming, he was shouting for me to get out of the bed to take my brunch. But all I was thinking was why must he interrupt my dream (I was having this fantastic adventure trying to protect a rich newborn baby from the baddies). And when I pulled myself out of bed to see what he has bought for brunch, I got a massive shock of my life. 1 big bowl of mee rebus, 1 big bowl of mee siam, 1 big bowl of tau huay, chee cheong fun, cheuy kueh, chendol and bobo cha cha. Just the two of us. My jaw dropped. Iwas already feling guilty from yesterday’s eating and today I feel as though I’m sinning again.

Man I’m so guilty. And its not the end of the story.

As mentioned earlier, was supposed to meet long and oct to play bumper car. But twas raining then so we decided to have an early dinner at grapevine. But, grapevine aint open yet so we walked over to 727 for durian puffs! Shiokest I tell you! The durian was oozing out. But I think, nothing can beat real durian that’s cracked open from the shell, with the seed and all. I love the bittersweet ones=) ok I digressed. Yeah so after that, headed over to grapevine and ate the usual stuff ( chicken leg stuffed with mushroom and mango smoothie). I feel so satisfied.

Then…


EURO FAIR!!! Spend like almost twenty dollars there! More ex then escape cans! We took three rides. The roller coaster, the ferris and the bumper. The roller coaster was like, no thrill. Felt nothing at all lar! Ok maybe it was for kids, but still feel kinda cheated… then we took the ferris wheel!


It went 8 rounds! The man collecting the ticket was an angmoh and it seems quite weird seeing him there. Long was saying it’s Euro Fair that’s why. LOL. The ferris ride was really quite fun. The only thing that was quite sad is that all you can see around you are building, HDBs and more HDBs.

Bumper was the last ride we took! Wah my first time playing bumper wor. I couldn’t steer properly when we first started so I keep going round in circles at one corner while the rest were already far far away. But when we finally started bumping, it was damn good. I think everybody couldn’t get their directions right, so we just anyhow steer and anyhow bump. Felt quite bad when I was bumping into those small kids but they bump me too!!! Haha.

Went to makan takopachi after that. Now you know why I’m feeling guilty. And tomorrow got Wee’s family food fest again. Somebody save me.

I love today!

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This company that I am working at is crazy. They either give me nothing to do at all, or they give me work that is enough to kill. The past 3 days was a turmoil. For once, I actually have a messy desk and have no time to act busy and go toilet. I start work at 8, and they make me work work work till 6 non-stop. Ok there's lunch in between. Wait a minute, am I complaining? No no no, seriously, I like it more this way. As long as work doesnt includes finding documents dated 2004 or printing POs ( they throw their old documents everywhere so finding them is a chore, the printer sux).

I used a typewriter to type this form again. And I actually typed 5 times before I got everything right. Uh huh.

O thats not the point. The point is today's already the 11th of april. Last day is on 27th! I dont know what Ishould be feeling or what Ishould do. As much as I hate this company, I'm gonna miss a few of my colleagues. Ok, maybe just Angie. And the cleaner auntie. And maybe Elaine. Thats about it. And then there's the problem of finding a new job because I need money. But I'm so lazy I really cant bring myself to go through all the interviewing and browsing again. So I'm thinking about staying home. But staying home doesnt bring you cash. Oh whatever, shall see how.

I want money! I want to lead an exciting and fulfilling life and it is only possible with money! C'mon, one step out of the door already cost money - transport! As I mentioned before, please dont ask me out unless its a low budget outing that promises lots of fun. ( geckying you are so irritating)

Hei bee says she's gonna bring me to go sit bumper car this weekend and I'm excited! I know I very mountain turtle but I never play bumper car before thats why. My mama forbids me ot play them when I was young cus she says its dangerous. Oh wells. And its difficult to find bumper cars these days so I'm so gonna go for it!

* I cant wait for 27th April.

This is it.

I know its been a long time since I last blogged. In fact, its been so long that I almost forgot my username and password. Alright, I’m blogging now ok! So people out there, stop harping! Lol.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about how unpredictable life is. You never know what is going to turn up around that corner. You don’t know when you are going straight, turning left/right, or choosing that u-turn despite telling yourself never to go back again. Pretty amazing I would think. For you could plan and plan and plan for what you would call a perfect future, but you might be caught in a sudden situation that takes everything away.

I’m not saying that we shouldn’t plan for the future. In fact, I think that planning is absolutely necessary. This is to give us a direction, a guide to what we want to do in life.

What I’m saying is that life brings you all kinds of surprises, or shocks as some may call it. They turn up at moments when you least expected it. Or they turn up when you thought you absolutely wouldn’t even get involved. Yes life is unpredictable, but life is beautiful. Sometimes, I would just lie on my bed and think about how blessed I am. Really, the simplest pleasure brings the most satisfaction.

I may not know what I am doing. But I know that this is what gives me the most satisfaction.