Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Monday, February 4, 2008
splash.splash.happy
Last monday, I forgot to bring my phone to school. But that was alright, I can live without the phone. Today, when I left the house for school, I forgot to bring my wallet out with me and I only realised it when I was at the bus stop. To walk to the bus stop from my house, I'll take ten minutes. And its brisk walking mind you. So today morning, I had a 30 min morning exercise before I go to school walking to the bus stop, back home, and to the bus stop again. How muddle headed can I get.
Its not the first time I'm saying this but I'm feeling quite overwhelmed by the things I have to do since school started. There is a hell lot of readings to do man and sadly I'm just not disciplined enough to finished all of them. I tried and only managed to complete a few. That pile of readings is just plain disgusting. Not to mention those that I have yet to print out. And projects, presentations and reports. I miss TS and History readings!!! They are so much shorter and consise and some even interesting!
I can't get over the fact that I have sensitive skin. Like super-sensitive. Just a few bites from I dont know what is enough to give me an allergy. And when they recover, they leave ugly scars. UGH. And they are itchy! You know, the more you scratch the more they spread? So I just have to tahan.
This year Chinese New Year is boring. I feel nothing of the ' festive cheer'. I remembered last time SBS used to have those decorations on their buses? The Hat from the Cai Shen Ye will be on the roof of the Bus? This year, I just see a few buses having the ' Gong Xi Fa Cai' msg being fkashed across their 'display screens'. How miserable.
And no more fireworks this year?! What happened? No organising commitee this year to try and spice things up? Even the pasar malam moved to Heartland mall! There used to be 4 stages around my area during CNY and they have speakers tied to the lampposts playing chinese new year songs so this year it seems very bleak.
Cant wait for angpows though. Hee
Its not the first time I'm saying this but I'm feeling quite overwhelmed by the things I have to do since school started. There is a hell lot of readings to do man and sadly I'm just not disciplined enough to finished all of them. I tried and only managed to complete a few. That pile of readings is just plain disgusting. Not to mention those that I have yet to print out. And projects, presentations and reports. I miss TS and History readings!!! They are so much shorter and consise and some even interesting!
I can't get over the fact that I have sensitive skin. Like super-sensitive. Just a few bites from I dont know what is enough to give me an allergy. And when they recover, they leave ugly scars. UGH. And they are itchy! You know, the more you scratch the more they spread? So I just have to tahan.
This year Chinese New Year is boring. I feel nothing of the ' festive cheer'. I remembered last time SBS used to have those decorations on their buses? The Hat from the Cai Shen Ye will be on the roof of the Bus? This year, I just see a few buses having the ' Gong Xi Fa Cai' msg being fkashed across their 'display screens'. How miserable.
And no more fireworks this year?! What happened? No organising commitee this year to try and spice things up? Even the pasar malam moved to Heartland mall! There used to be 4 stages around my area during CNY and they have speakers tied to the lampposts playing chinese new year songs so this year it seems very bleak.
Cant wait for angpows though. Hee
Saturday, February 2, 2008
It's just weird. Something happened and I feel that I dont know what to believe and what not to believe. I don't know who is right and who is wrong. And who is to say what is right and wrong? There's so much to think over and I just dont know. If it could be settled so easily then why not? I dont stand to lose, or do I? Just when I thought that I have no reason to doubt, I can come up with like 10 or more other reasons that thinks otherwise. I guess it it about faith and sensibility. Or faith and practicality. Or simply pantangness and reason. Oh whatever.
What if its true? What if its not true?
All I know is that if I do not believe now, and the scenario did happen one or two years later, I'll be filled with remorse. But what if it isnt true? If I did what I was told to do, I will not know if it is true or not also.
Ok I'm just as puzzled as you (whoever is reading this post now), so dont ask me. Cus I dont really know either.
I just dont want bad things to come.
I hate to think. But it seems like I can never stop thinking.
Ps: It sucks when your interest doesnt seem to bring you anywhere.
What if its true? What if its not true?
All I know is that if I do not believe now, and the scenario did happen one or two years later, I'll be filled with remorse. But what if it isnt true? If I did what I was told to do, I will not know if it is true or not also.
Ok I'm just as puzzled as you (whoever is reading this post now), so dont ask me. Cus I dont really know either.
I just dont want bad things to come.
I hate to think. But it seems like I can never stop thinking.
Ps: It sucks when your interest doesnt seem to bring you anywhere.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
sem 2
I can foresee that I am going to dislike this sem very much.
I dint manage to get all my choices in the tutorial ballot. I must have been too lucky last sem as I got everything that I wanted. I have been planning for a 3 day week this sem. In the end, I've got a 3.5 day week. 3.5 because the tutorial on wednesdays only fall on alternate weeks. However, tutorial is at 2-4pm so the whole day is wasted already. Imagine, I going to school for a two hour tutorial only.
Maybe I screwed up. If I know what I am goingto major in, I think everything would work out way better than it is now.
I dint manage to get all my choices in the tutorial ballot. I must have been too lucky last sem as I got everything that I wanted. I have been planning for a 3 day week this sem. In the end, I've got a 3.5 day week. 3.5 because the tutorial on wednesdays only fall on alternate weeks. However, tutorial is at 2-4pm so the whole day is wasted already. Imagine, I going to school for a two hour tutorial only.
Maybe I screwed up. If I know what I am goingto major in, I think everything would work out way better than it is now.
Monday, January 14, 2008
the first day
I started school today with a weird sense of familiarity. It was kind of distant after such a long break. I was already getting comfortable with my lifestyle. Yet, everything feels the same as before. Even LT 11 smells the way I remember it to be. It was the first thing that caught my attention when I enter the lecture hall. It feels like some kind of dejavu, but its not.
The bus was just as crowded in the morning. When I managed to get a seat, one of those door signs hanging on the railing dropped right smack on my head. I don’t know what causes it to drop but it was so embarrassing. I wonder what the person who was sitting beside me thinking when she saw it happened. Maybe she was chuckling to herself silently. And then I saw someone who was wearing the same shirt as me board the bus. I saw my ‘enemy’ twice in school today. She’s in one of the same lecture as me. Hopefully I don’t get into the same tutorial group as her. (I will just die.) Did I mention? I even recognized the sbs bus uncle when I boarded the bus on the way home.
Lectures today are really not to my liking. It was too blatant and too blunt in the morning and later, it was just plain boring. Maybe it’s just the first lecture. I should give myself and the lecturers more time.
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It’s nice to sit by the window at night typing this entry. It’s quiet, breezy and calm. I’m listening to this album by Emi Fujita that was given to me by Sweedy (or maybe Sweedy’s friend). It feels good to just, I don’t know, be alone for a while.
Ricky says that my house in the future will be very Zen because I like the feeling of being at peace. Maybe.
It’s just not right to start school now. I’m not ready for all the hustle and bustle.
The bus was just as crowded in the morning. When I managed to get a seat, one of those door signs hanging on the railing dropped right smack on my head. I don’t know what causes it to drop but it was so embarrassing. I wonder what the person who was sitting beside me thinking when she saw it happened. Maybe she was chuckling to herself silently. And then I saw someone who was wearing the same shirt as me board the bus. I saw my ‘enemy’ twice in school today. She’s in one of the same lecture as me. Hopefully I don’t get into the same tutorial group as her. (I will just die.) Did I mention? I even recognized the sbs bus uncle when I boarded the bus on the way home.
Lectures today are really not to my liking. It was too blatant and too blunt in the morning and later, it was just plain boring. Maybe it’s just the first lecture. I should give myself and the lecturers more time.
*
It’s nice to sit by the window at night typing this entry. It’s quiet, breezy and calm. I’m listening to this album by Emi Fujita that was given to me by Sweedy (or maybe Sweedy’s friend). It feels good to just, I don’t know, be alone for a while.
Ricky says that my house in the future will be very Zen because I like the feeling of being at peace. Maybe.
It’s just not right to start school now. I’m not ready for all the hustle and bustle.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
shallow life
I’ve been working at this place with Sweedy and gang for the last week for a few days. And I’m going to continue with it for a few more random days this month. School is starting in a week’s time and I’m going to squeeze all the things that I am supposed to do but have not done in this week. Hopefully I can find the time.
My brother had started school already and while he was doing his homework just now, I did a very bad thing. I went to disturb him.
And I just realized that the primary school kids have started school already. I forgot all about it until my dad reminded me that I’m supposed to call my aunt to let her know when I can start tuition.
My life currently revolves around friends, money, shopping, food, movies and games. I know I know. I’m shallow. Life is good sometimes when you don’t have to think so much.
My brother had started school already and while he was doing his homework just now, I did a very bad thing. I went to disturb him.
And I just realized that the primary school kids have started school already. I forgot all about it until my dad reminded me that I’m supposed to call my aunt to let her know when I can start tuition.
My life currently revolves around friends, money, shopping, food, movies and games. I know I know. I’m shallow. Life is good sometimes when you don’t have to think so much.
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